A Pocketful of Sunshine

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

i was plain FOOLISH on tues. i don't know how i end up buying a $1.05 REG COKE when i wanted a $1.50 REG MILO!!! something must have gotten into me.

anyways, these are my COLOURS for the upcoming WORLDCUP!!!

YELLOW, RED and BLACK!!!

haha. totally rooting for GERMANY (:

xoxo,
S
2:37 AM

Monday, May 15, 2006

KOREA is so MAGICAL that its magic is still lingering......
haha. i just have to wait till the day i get back there again.
will post the photos up soon.
so, till then Sam shall not bore you with further details,
as two full previous entries on Korea is more than enough.

Anyway, talking abt today, IT WAS MONDAY BLUES THROUGHOUT THE DAY!!!argh. GUYS REALLY HAVE TO COUNT THEIR BLOODY BLESSINGS THAT THEY DON'T HAVE THAT 'CRIMSON TIDE' ONCE IN A MONTH! hahahaha. it just feels AWWWFULLL! this time esp. so yea, reminder to all guys out there, try to be nice to your girls as often as you can, cos' you will never understand, and thank god don't have to go through that time of the month like we do. so, we girls deserved to be pampered and worshipped!!! hahaha. to a certain extend that is =p

xoxo,
S
5:17 AM

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

SAM IS BACK AND MISSING KOREA! the reason is obvious... hahaha. but the thing is, something just seems to be missing. and i don't feel right. it's just a lil' strange inside. i still haven't gotten over the fact that i'm back in S'pore. it's like, the every next day i wake up, it's like, "Oh, not sleeping in a hotel anymore, gotta go to school!". Then when i open the door first thing in the morning, it's HOT WARM HUMID AIR that greets me, instead of the COOL DRY BREEZE that usually hits me straight in the face when i start a brand new day in Korea. i'm feeling different, the air is different, the people is different. maybe i had so much fun i didn't even wanna leave. I miss waking up and anticipating what we are gg to do this very day. I miss the HUGGABLE LADY TOUR GUIDE that take care of us so well, just like a mother hen. Heart was kinda sad when we had to part ways and i'd to hug her gdbye at the airport. It's just weird not seeing her after the 4 days in Korea. As for Calvin, haha, it's like missing an elder brother. I miss seeing the two of them first thing in the morning when i board the coach. I even miss the long coach rides. Most of all, the pretty fireworks that light up the sky the night we were in Everland. Think of the sight, tonnes of fireworks shooting up in the sky, against a backdrop of mountains, then falling back dwn onto earth in showers of gold. we were snug in our clothes, feeling the cool night breeze against our faces. Life never felt so good. I WANT EVERLAND!!! I miss looking at the beautiful vast landscape and people watching on the busy streets. I miss having meals with the group. I miss switching on the tv and hearing the Korean Language that greets me. I miss feeling good abt myself and life when i wake up first thing in the morning, cos' there wasn't the burden of trouble and stress. I miss discovering new new places and taking photos. I miss plucking the ripe red strawberries and putting them in my mouth, feeling the taste of sweetness wash over me. hahaha. I felt happy. Now that i'm back in S'pore, my heart just feels empty, the thought of doing projects and homewrk puts me to a standstill. I was looking at the photographs we have taken for the past few days through the long haul of flight, and i felt this sudden longing to go back to Korea again, with the same tour group and guides. I've no idea why. maybe it's just funny knowing that we might nvr gg to meet them again and there wasn't like a proper conclusion for the trip. I nvr felt like this before.

Suddenly, i was thinking, if only LIFE IS LIKE A MOVIE BURNED ON DVD, I CAN SIMPLY REWIND AND REPLAY MY FAVOURITE SCENES, AND IMMERSE MYSELF IN THE FEELINGS OF THAT MOMENT IN TIME. AND WHEH I MISS IT, I CAN SIMPLY RELIVE THE MOMENT RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY EYES AGAIN. cos' it just sad when happy moments come to an end, and all you've got are photos of it to live by, capturing it on camera is different as experiencing it in reality again. the cold hard fact is, at the end of the day, when we had enough fun, and all these happy hours come to an end, WE ALL HAVE OUR OWN LIVES TO LIVE AND RETURN TO. THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS FOREVER. it's like this period of transition, when we have to get over our own emotions and move on. the Korea Trip aside, i believe all of us have moments that we want to prolonged... our CHILDHOOD, our YOUTH, our FRIENDSHIP, our LOVE, PRI SCH LIFE, SEC SCH LIFE and the list goes on... it's just this unwillingness and reluctantness to return back to the same old life cos this experience have changed or touched us in one way or another. but can someone tell me, what do i do to move on from there? THIS FEELING OF MISSING SOMETHING OR SOMEONE IS JUST LIKE A BAD ACHE IN THE HEART THAT WON'T GO AWAY. haha. but i tell myself, i got over LOST FRIENDSHIPS, PRI SCH AND SEC SCH GRADUATION, i can get over this too. since someone invented the camera, could someone answer my plea and invent a time machine pls? haha (:

SAM IS SO KOREA-SICK!

"I'll get over you.. I know I will
I'll pretend my ship's not sinking
And I'll tell myself I'm over you
'cause I'm the king of wishful thinking."

xoxo,
S
3:08 AM